It’s January 4th and I’ve just received an email saying I got into Australian Open Qualifying. Playing it would mean I have competed in all four Grand Slams. As players that is what we work so hard for, the opportunity to play at the big stage. Before 2016 I was unsure if I was going to get into Australian Open with my ranking so my coach and I decided we would skip it to give me an opportunity to push my ranking up. Since many of the players go and play in Australia it leaves a lot of the other tournaments in prime position to do well in. I can’t tell you how many times I second guessed myself if I was making the right decision. Before the start of the year I was determined to carry out the plan. But after I received the email I started to think twice. Then I had tons of people ask me why I wasn’t going to go to Australia. Like I was stupid for passing up the chance to play in another Grand Slam.
I’m serving 15-30 at 4-4 in the 3rd set. My first round in Bangkok yesterday and I am literally dead and cannot move. At this point bad thoughts really start to creep in as much as you try to ignore them. “You should have gone to Australia!” Everything after that point was actually a blur. I’m really not sure how I was able to pull off a victory in the next two games.
We are constantly making decisions on a daily basis. Whether it’s choosing a place to eat (I find this quite hard), choosing a university to attend, or choosing a career path. You want to make the “right” decision. But the truth is how do we ever know if we are making the “right” decision. I don’t think there is such a thing. We do our research and make the best calculated decision and we stick to it. No second guessing!